La Cruda Verita

Lord, I know sometimes my faith in you falters

I forget to look beyond what is there.

Failing to realize that you are always there for me

For that, I am sorry.

For all the times that I have forgotten,

Thank you so much for everything.

Thank you for my wonderful family and friends.

Thank you for our good health and continuous spiritual and material wealth.

And I especially thank you for always reminding me that there is a sunshine after the rain!

Message: I am brought alive by the miracle of love.

There are no qualifications to receiving God’s love. It doesn’t matter if you’re rich or poor, a doctor or a simple employee. It doesn’t matter if you are a sinner or a saint. He doesn’t need a reason to love us, He just does. God’s love is everlasting, He will love us even if nobody else will. And we are assured that He will never fall out of love.

Love is one of the basic of human needs. Love is what makes life worth living. It is what makes LIVING different from merely EXISTING. The love you get depends on the love you give. But in order to give love, we must learn to love ourselves first.

Prayer:

Father, I am broken and hurting.
Teach me to trust in Your love.
That You will love me no matter what.

Father, I am broken and hurting,
Help me to love myself even if I am not
feeling lovable at the moment.

Father, I am broken and hurting,
Send me a friend who can spend a minute
listening and loving.

Father, I am broken and hurting,
Make me realize that I am truly
precious to You.

Father, heal my brokenness
and fill my emptiness.
AMEN.

I could not wait to ride it,

Eversince I can remember, I have

always wanted to be on it.

But I was too young and a little

afraid then.

I had to wait and work hard.

And then before I knew it,

I was ready.

The wait was long and I

persevered.

After all, it has been all

I have ever wanted.

I stepped up and was welcomed

by a warm cocoon.

I held on and braced myself

for the ride.

And what a ride it was!

Only, when I stepped down,

I realized it wasn’t really how I

thought it would be.

There was no fulfilment, no contentment.

Now, I can’t even remember why I

wanted to be on it.

“He says YES and gives you what you want,

He says NO and gives you something better,

He says WAIT and gives you the best in His own time.”

I feel like a failure. I hate feeling like I have to prove something to everyone. Could have I done things differently?

All I have now is my faith. My faith that everything will turn out the way God wants it to be. As it is, my faith is being shaken but I am praying that I can hold on.

How true…

Yes, my heart is in little pieces. I don’t know when I can put it back together but I know I will. I just don’t know how or if I can risk it being in little pieces again.