Prayer #3

Lord, once again you have proven to me that I only have to turn to You.
Remind me everyday until I no longer have doubts.
Remind me that all I have to do is lift things up to You.
The pain is no longer mine,
for You have taken it away.
The triumphs will both be ours,
for You are there cheering me on.

All I need is YOU, my Lord!

 

Miss Na Kita

Dear Friend,

Miss na talaga kita! Nasanay na ako na ikaw ang taga gising ko sa umaga at taga-hele ko sa gabi. Parang hindi kumpleto ang araw ko kung hindi ko nakikita ang pangalan mo sa inbox ng cellphone ko. Alam kong may mga dahilan kung bakit nawawala ka minsan. Alam ko ding wala akong karapatan para alamin pa kung ano iyong mga iyon. Sana lang minsan maalala mo din ako. O baka naman hindi ko schedule ngayon?

Sa isang banda, tama din naman ito. Dapat hindi ako masanay na nandyan ka. Masyado ka kasing sweet, baka mahulog ang loob ko sa’yo. Hindi pa nga ba? Hindi ko alam kung sadyang ganyan ka talaga o sa akin ka lang ganyan. Hindi ko din alam kung ano ang papaniwalaan ko. Kailangan kong maging maingat. Ayokong dumating ang araw na kailangan akong mamili at natatakot akong baka hindi ikaw ang piliin ko.

Miss na kita! Mag-text ka naman please!

Nikki

 

Prayer #2

“Lord, when I loose hope because my plans have come to nothing, help me to remember that your love is always greater than my disappointments and your plans for my life is always better than my dreams.”

Sometimes we hurt so much and nothing we do can seem to take away that hurt. A few years ago, shopping was the simple cure for me but not anymore. Praying or simply talking to God is what cures me nowadays. It is better than shopping! It would leave me feeling lighter and more at peace with myself.

I know I still have a lot of things to work on with myself but I am getting there!

 

Change

Why can’t things stay as they are? Everything around me is changing. I feel like I’m standing on the side of a railroad track and everything around me is passing me by. Everything is changing except me. Everyone is going somewhere and I am left alone, rooted to the spot.

Even my relationships are changing. Sometimes I wish I could stay in an isolated island forever. Far from people who can leave me with deep wounds and scars. In isolation, there can be no rejection, no resentment. In isolation, I can at least protect my heart.

I want to start fresh – remain anonymous in a sea of new faces.  I want to go where nobody would expect me to always be there. I want to go some place where I only have myself to depend on. I want to get back the parts of myself that I gave away and lost. I want to search for the person I can truly become. I want to recharge after draining and milking myself dry for other people. For once, I want to take charge of my life!

The Serenity Prayer: 

God, grant me the serenity to  accept the things I cannot change;

courage to change the things I can, and

the wisdom to know the difference.

Living one day at a time;

enjoying one moment at a time;

accepting hardships as the pathway to peace.

Taking as He did, this sinful world as it is, not as I would have it.

Trusting that He will make all things right, if I surrender to His will.

That I may be reasonably happy in this life,

and supremely happy with Him forever in the next.

 

Prayer of Thanksgiving 1

Lord, I know sometimes my faith in you falters

I forget to look beyond what is there.

Failing to realize that you are always there for me

For that, I am sorry.

For all the times that I have forgotten,

Thank you so much for everything.

Thank you for my wonderful family and friends.

Thank you for our good health and continuous spiritual and material wealth.

And I especially thank you for always reminding me that there is a sunshine after the rain!

 

The Angel of the Miracle of Love

Message: I am brought alive by the miracle of love.

There are no qualifications to receiving God’s love. It doesn’t matter if you’re rich or poor, a doctor or a simple employee. It doesn’t matter if you are a sinner or a saint. He doesn’t need a reason to love us, He just does. God’s love is everlasting, He will love us even if nobody else will. And we are assured that He will never fall out of love.

Love is one of the basic of human needs. Love is what makes life worth living. It is what makes LIVING different from merely EXISTING. The love you get depends on the love you give. But in order to give love, we must learn to love ourselves first.

Prayer:

Father, I am broken and hurting.
Teach me to trust in Your love.
That You will love me no matter what.

Father, I am broken and hurting,
Help me to love myself even if I am not
feeling lovable at the moment.

Father, I am broken and hurting,
Send me a friend who can spend a minute
listening and loving.

Father, I am broken and hurting,
Make me realize that I am truly
precious to You.

Father, heal my brokenness
and fill my emptiness.
AMEN.

 

Fantasy Ride

I could not wait to ride it,

Eversince I can remember, I have

always wanted to be on it.

But I was too young and a little

afraid then.

I had to wait and work hard.

And then before I knew it,

I was ready.

 

The wait was long and I

persevered.

After all, it has been all

I have ever wanted.

I stepped up and was welcomed

by a warm cocoon.

I held on and braced myself

for the ride.

And what a ride it was!

 

Only, when I stepped down,

I realized it wasn’t really how I

thought it would be.

There was no fulfilment, no contentment.

Now, I can’t even remember why I

wanted to be on it.

 

 

God answers prayers in three ways. . .

“He says YES and gives you what you want,

He says NO and gives you something better,

He says WAIT and gives you the best in His own time.”

I feel like a failure. I hate feeling like I have to prove something to everyone. Could have I done things differently?

All I have now is my faith. My faith that everything will turn out the way God wants it to be. As it is, my faith is being shaken but I am praying that I can hold on.

 

” It’s amazing how someone can break your heart, but you still love them with all the little pieces.”

How true…

Yes, my heart is in little pieces. I don’t know when I can put it back together but I know I will. I just don’t know how or if I can risk it being in little pieces again.